Ode de Desperation

ODE DE DESPERATION

Anxiety bubbling in my chest
Frantic emotions can't be stilled 
Empty head full of distress
Will the rising heat be chilled?
Shallow breaths in and out Heart beats against the ribcage Flooded with unreasonable doubt My Rationality's disengaged
Suffocation reels me in The mind is lost for clarity When did this all begin? And Where's my serenity?
I look to others with green eyed envy Carrying themselves with such ease While my own frame hangs heavy Rocked by the gentlest breeze
This undulating exigency overwhelms My senses spiraling out of control Like stepping into an aphotic realm
Exchange a penny for my soul

Submerged in a bottomless well
It's impossible to break free
Of this self constructed hell
I'm a victim of my own trajectory